30 days and stuck in this house for the first 2.

The rain tumbles down and cleanses all these allergies away for a bit. YAY!!   Everyone loves a rainy day to have some to be a little lazy.  So happy to not be out pounding the pavement trying to get sales on days like this. Instead I get to make my new plan that I am really excited about.  In addition, I have learned my dogs sleep a lot more than I thought.  That's a good thing for our trip out west. I have loved hearing the excitement in my children's voices and all the plans they have.  I know I have made a really good change in my life...and in theirs.  I've had a chance to catch up with life.....emails, phone calls, planning lunch dates etc.  It's been interesting seeing how this is all happening.  I have to say I'm  feeling supported, loved and I really appreciate those of you who are helping to make my transition easier. It's very cool.  Looking forward to seeing some of you in the next couple weeks.  Feeling way more confident and well....excited!!!  I really am and not feeling guilty about it!!!

ugh.....getting harder to say "I'll see you later"

I never imagined the heartache I would actually feel leaving.  There are many hurdles in this moving adventure that I didn't count on.  I know I'm strong enough. Just taking deep breaths...a day at a time and diving in ..the next 3 weeks with people I care about so much..all  the hugs, kisses, laughs... I will treasure every single moment.  You are all very very precious to me. You have helped to make me .....well...me. And I hope to see you soon!!

Someone very special to me gave me a gift tonight and I'd just like to share something that made my heart feel good.  <3

 (:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5C93XDE6qtw

Everything is getting real.  Kind of scary.  So this weekend starts my final visits here on the east coast.  I never look at it as a good bye....it's more of an"I love you and I'll see you soon" visit.  A hard one is coming up this weekend. My other Mom. If I've learned anything from this move ..it's the meaning of time.
"Time" is so important to pay attention to.  Time gets away from all of us..have those special moments when you can. Most importantly when the day ends and you count your blessings.....it's so much better when you have the connection and your able to come HOME.
I am headed out soon to make a new home.....scary?  yes...but I think once I get there....it's going to kind of make it's own story.  Deep breathe for sure.

one month, two days

So... I have sold, given away and donated my furniture, belongings and 2 of my pets.  And I know most of you will probably find this very silly.....but I don't.  Someone is picking up my kitchen table tomorrow to a new home.  I cannot tell you how many hours I have spent here.....looking out my bay window while working, studying, talking to those I care about....etc.  This table has a huge history...if it could only speak!  For 25 years...I have made thousands of meals, had many heartfelt talks, raised my children, had wine nights with my girls, have had to answer "those" difficult questions, family meetings, and the list goes on.  It's weird....I never thought I'd be attach to a piece of furniture but find out it's sort of sad for me. I am glad the gal that's taking it loves it and so it continues to have more dinners and conversations and bring joy.  One day I'll buy a new table to start a new history love and memories...Until then  I am grateful to have a bridge table and fold up chairs for the next month!!  I'll have to put a little padding on mine to sit on but that's okay.....that's what towels are for!!  Appreciate what you have......Life is precious! <3

final month

Wow....it's been a busy but thinking time for me.  This past week I had to come to terms that I am leaving the people in my life that are my family and my friends along with my daily hellos and hugs that have supported me and helped me over many years.   My simple but sometimes crazy life routine is going to change. I'll have new friends to meet. New places to frequent ....but I will still stay in touch with my friends and family here. I am so thankful for the internet so that we can all keep in touch for sure. I hope to be back at least once a year so I can catch up with everyone!! And you are all welcome to visit me whenever you're out this way.   I have also been touched by the true words that have come from those close to me. ...and I'm wondering why it takes some sort of grand event for the people close to you to say what they mean.  It really shouldn't be that way. Counting my blessings in many ways.

We all make our choices.....I chose to continue to grow.

Today was a hard day for me.  I am realizing that I can't be hurt by the way people chose to  react to my leaving.  This doesn't mean I won't still be in their life. These days there are so many ways to stay in touch.  Its awesome....helps me to know I can stay connected to those I love and care about.  We all need to keep growing in every way that we can, do our good deed for the day and cherish all that we have.  I am sorry that my leaving may cause hurt....but I'm still here to talk to anytime......I am always here for a kind word, a shoulder or a laugh.....I'm not going to feel guilty about doing what I need to do or making a better life for me and mine.  Thanks for all the support.....grateful today for the sunshine on my face and the ability to challenge my body in one heck of a barre class, and being able to help out a few people in my life that matter to me.  Oh and Mali is rocking the leash....leaps and bounds.  I love ending each day with a good deed for making someone smile and an accomplishment in whatever shape or form.....My next goal is to read more...without falling asleep by the 4th page... :)

New beginnings

Once upon a time someone told me that I see my world through rose colored glasses.  May be I do.  Looking at the positive ahead and fulfilling my dreams has helped me to fight through the thick and thin of my life.  I used to think that comment was a negative but I know look at it as a "Hey....so what at least I'm living my life the way I choose too!"  And I'm happy.  I had to give up one of my pets this week...wasn't fun....lots of guilt but I know Kismet will be loved and well taken care of.  The house is under contract, my home no longer feels like my home .....and I'm feeling in limbo....sort of like camping out.  It's okay.  At least I have a roof over my head and a tv, computer and my kitchen appliances.  The emotional  is more than I ever thought.  It's way harder but I think that the excitement of new beginnings balances everything out. Today is Easter and it's all about new life, new beginnings....I spent it alone with my canines but that's fine with me.

WOW! Spring is finally here! Yay!!

Had my big moving sale today.  Of course folks were here by 7:15 am
 although it was posted to start at 8 am.   BUT....raised enough today to cover the shipping of my car....YAY!!  Perfect day....Sun was shining!  I was overwhelmed with the hugs and the love I felt today from the people within my community.  I guess after being here 25 years.....more people know me than I knew.  It was humbling to say the least.  Had 2 showings for the house today.......fingers crossed!!!  I thought that getting rid of all my belongings would make me sad.  But it didn't'.....it's just stuff. The people in your life is what matters. Paul and I had dinner with my brother Greg and his girlfriend Alyson.  Such a good time.  It was really the first moment it hit me and I got all choked up.  I'm going to miss my family, my home, the familiarity.......but it's okay.  Good things ahead!

Spring has sprung!! YAY ..finally!

My daffodils have bloomed  and it's the beginning of spring. Halleujah!!! My home has so many phases of growth among the plants..so fun to watch......and over the years the changes among of the people that live here.  Bittersweet.....although....I will NOT miss the fall leaves.

I woke up this morning in a panic.  OMG...in a little over a month I have to leave my little safety net here and begin again.  I'm having a moving sale on Saturday to give away the last 10 years of my life. ....It'll be fun.....making someone smile, I'm a sucker at yard sales.  I'd rather have things go to someone that loves it!  Then.....I guess.....the rest goes to charity and life will change.  That's okay......good things ahead.  Today....It was the first day it was a little scary....but onward and forward....right!!

So I made it through my double nickel day! It's okay!

I don't know about you but I don't really pay attention to New Years.  For me, I take inventory of my life and make goals on my birthday each year.  Yes I turned 55 this year. It's okay. I feel good about this past year.  I ended a three year battle of debt, YAY, and so happy to be free of that. I rescued 20 more puppies and adopted my Mali.  I took a break from rescue to give my heart and my life a break.  I found my passion with what I career I want to pursue. I continue to make a difference in peoples life by doing a good deed every day and paying it forward....I'm now working with Tidal Wave ....an amazing organization. I made a decision to make a change for my life by moving and being with my kids to experience something new.  I'm excited for this year of being 55 and looking forward to sharing my new adventures.

It takes courage to do what you want, other people have a lot of plans for you, follow your bliss. ~Joseph Campbell

Less than 2 months!!!

So I'm understanding that folks are either not understanding my "big decision" or they are excited for me. This is big for me too, but I've always been very adaptable, found my own way, made friends easily....it's all good.  I'm going to miss my loved ones here and the "normal routine" of each day and the way it waves through the seasons.  I'm excited and I hope to be supported by those who care about me through this journey in my life.  I knew I'd live near the beach one day but never thought I'd have to go through so much in my life to get here....to my new home.  I had some very meaningful conversations over the past few days and it's made me feel very loved.  Fingers crossed for buyer traffic this weekend.  My birthday is on Saturday....55...wow....does that make me a senior citizen?  I feel fortunate to be healthy and making this new adventure!!  <3